hawklover

Water pours, tear drops fall. Shouting, screaming, words exchanged. Make it go away. Sick of drama, sick of pain, what happened to the calm world we once knew. Blood will drip, scars will fade, but pain will linger. Take your shit and shut your mouth. I'm done.

Airplanes in the dark night sky, shots of hope whizzing by. Crickets out there in the dark night grass, let me know this war could pass. The 4 am news, i'm not all alone. The sun slowly creeping, my heart slowly sinking. Isolation, this wars just begun. When the lights go out, my fears flood my head. My mind starts to wander, and i'm on my feet. I'm all alone, and the worlds chasing. When the lights go out my heart starts racing. The cars don't go by, the plans don't whiz over. My body is sinking i'm slowly going crazy. Isolation. The sky is black, the stars don't shine, not a silent reminder, not warp in time. Still alone, running through th

I remember why. Do you even remember who I am. Do you know how much you meant to me, a shoulder to cry on, someone to make me laugh, but we threw that a way. Yes I remember why. I can't say I'm sad it's over. But I still remember why. I can't say I'm sad to see you, because sometimes, in truth I still cry. No regrets, no wishes, but I still remember why. What is it about me that makes you run away. What is so appalling that suddenly I don't exist. I know you don't care, I know this means nothing to you. But I hope you know, I still remember why. Life will go on, you'll slowly disappear. But I'll still always remember why. I hope you still rem

Sky's of gray, my map is blank. Twisted turns, and jumbled thoughts. Empty my mind, slit my wrist, don't let the past control me forever. Sunken heart, throbbing head, sweet memories, corrupted by pain. Does anything matter, should I even care, trapped in time, nowhere to go. Lost what I loved, lost my friends, lost my sanity. Falling in darkness, crumbling on my own. Gone from reality. My sanity betrays me, my hope is lost. Don't let this be the end, the rope crawls away. Sky's of gray, my map is blank.

The horror behind my eyes as my mind drifts away, I awake to a cold dark hole, my warm haven floats away, with my heart in his hands. When you look at me what do you see? Do you see my pain? My fear, and isolation? Do you see how I need to be loved, how I need someone to chase away the dreams. Cold and alone, a silent eternity, tears fall silently, waiting for my sweet sweet haven that never comes. When you look at me what do you see? Do you see through me, do you notice i'm there? Do you notice that I'm alone and I can't get through this alone. Have I suddenly slipped your mind, do I just not matter. The horror behind my eyes, tearing me apa

Cold and crying, thought he'd be here but he's not and my heart feels torn in two. Thinking back to all the promises. He says he's always there, always by my side, but I guess that's not the case. Carry my away. Please Take me home, carry me away. Heal all my pain, don't let it rule my day. I wanna leave, I wanna be free. Please just let the angels carry me away. They only see the smile when he's near. He coaxes it out of hiding, chases all the bad away. Things are changing, pain is crushing, he's not here to help. God, just carry me away. Please take me home, carry me away. Heal all my pain, don't let it rule my day. I wan

Trying not to care, I've always known I didn't matter, but some how it still hurts. They're off in their own little world, a world where I don't belong, and I'm wondering if I'll ever fit in. One little link but suddenly I've been cut off, does anybody even notice. I guess I'm not that important, but at one point I thought they cared. Slowly isolated, wondering how I became this way, why I'm so alone.  They're off on their own, in their own little clicks and I'm starting to wonder, wonder why I ever thought I'd be accepted. To them I'm just an emotionless bitch, just an underdog, thrown on the bottom once again. Trying to figure out how they

Never alone, somethings finally looking up, you always put a smile on my face. I know I'm not alone, don't have to give up, you're always there. You've shown me what love really is. You're a light in my darkness, you give me hope. No one knows me like you do, no one understands me like you. You've never given up, and I've never felt this way. Don't ever make me know what it's like to lose you, don't ever break my heart. I know that I never have to be alone, that I'm gonna be okay. As long as your around, the pain goes away. You're amazing, you're my one true love. Forever and a day.